We talked things over last night.

What never even started has come to an end.

What do you feel when you lose something you never really had in the first place?

The answers elude me.

Because,
as always,
all that I feel is emptiness.

Of Bestfriends and Tattoos

Once upon a time,
In HELP's stairwell where a bunch of smokers
*and non-smokers who were just there to poyo-like me!! heehee! 0=)*
were chilling,
Elaine suddenly piped up

"Sherve, you know we've been talking about getting a tattoo done since like, form5?"

If you read her blog,
you'd know that both of us are planning to get the same tattoo done at the same place.

and I'm not backing out.
Nononononononononon

Eventhough I heard tattoos on your hip
*where we're planning to get ours done*
hurts like a bitch because of the bone there.

and I also heard.
and SAW pictures
of tattoos that get infected and the scar that looks like you got boiled or something.
*imagines my skin blistered and red and peeling*

0_o
Nononono
I'm not backing out.
*looks around nervously*
=p

Anyway,
I was on the phone with my dear ex-boyfriend Bryan and I was telling him about the future execution of Plan-Tattoo.

"We plan to get some tribal butterfly lah..."
"Tribal butterfly? I drew one before! and people say quite nice wor And they say wanna make tattoo but I don't let only"
*perasan*
"Hmm.... Why not?"
"Cos I don't want to go out and see just ANYONE with MY design on their body."

*thinks about the consequences of having an ex-boyfriend's design on MY body*
-_"

heehee! *joking Bry.. =p*
It iS nice though.
Bryans talented. =)))

Check it out.
I asked him to tweak it a little.
But its a rough design of what I will most probably end up getting.
*by the way, its copyrighted so no stealing the design! blehhhhhhhhhh =p*

If Elaine agrees.
and if neither of us chicken out.
0=)

Gluttony

I went shopping on Friday with 30 bucks with me
and left with 18 bucks and my bank account RM250 poorer.

I bought new nike pants to exercise in!
The new range is freaking nice and just makes you wanna go to the gym
*to show off your new pants of course! *heehee!!=p**
worth every penny

Guess was having a sale too and I just couldn't resist <3

Haven't checked out the 1U Guess Sales yet but the Guess in MV was quite satisfying.

Alot of clothes on either 60% or 70% off.

There was this top I had been eyeing for some time going off at 60%.

Still too exorbitant tho cos it was still like, RM180 or something after discount.

Ho hMMm

I love my new pants. *gleeglee*

Randomness:

Since Cheryl and I chillout super super alot at the gym nowadays,

we have been free to come up with loads of theories.

One of them:

When there are a few guys going after a girl,

She usually pickes the best looking or the most popular one(who usually isn't the nicest)

over Mr Nice-but-not-so-good-looking.

In the end,

she ends up getting hurt and comes up with theories that all guys are jerks.

*because the cycle iS going to repeat itself anyway the next time around*

So true in most cases...

I'm blogging while waiting for lunch.
Its almost 3 and lunch is not ready 0_o

I swear, my parents don't feed us enough.
My mom is SO unlike my grandmother who believes in the philosophy
"eat! eat! eaT! The fatter you are the more prosperous!"

My mom barely prepares enough. *grumbles*

Well anyway,
UpdateS!

-I joined Fitness First at Uptownn *beamS*
I'm so unfit!
After BodyJam yesterday,
my body is aching like anything.

anD
I noticed that ALL my dance instructers are freakinG gay. *heehee!! =)))*
I wonder if its an act they put on or only gay guys get to pass the "dance Instructer" test and get a cert 0=)

-Last night at Hartamas, as I was leaving Breakers,
this MEgA huge Malay guy walked in with a teeny weeny girlfriend who looked like sho could have been my sisters age.
Why would a 20 plus year old man want to sleep with a girl of like, 14??? 0_o
Sick I tell you these paedophiles...
yuck -_"

Anyways,
lunch is ready =)))
Spaghetti!!!
ToodleS!
Shall update wt pics soon.

Meet 6510

This is the phone I have now.

I wanna upgrade it to the 6111.

But then I read the comments and reviews.

Gosh... I've never read more glowing reviews for a phone than for the 6510.

ALL the users praised this phone.

and I've gotta admit, its lasted me for like.. 3 yrs?
and not given any major probs.

Now it feels so hard to let go....
=(

Random Tots

Just something I thought about today:
Sometimes, we aren't in love with the person.
We're in love with the memories of the past we used to share.

I stayed together with someone I stopped liking a long time ago because of memories.

I missed someone and thought I was still in love with him for some time because of memories.

We romanticise the past.
If we want to think positively of something,
we delete the negative from our memories.

The girlfriend beater suddenly becomes Prince Charming.

Or if we want to,
we can even forget all the good.

We can only remember the hurt, treachery and twinge
caused by someone
and forget all the times
that person extended a helping hand when we needed one.

Hmm..

Once Upon A Fairytale

This is a story of a girl, a little darling,
who, so happened, was looking for a prince charming.

New Years,she was playing with her golden ball
when she met a frog on top of a wall

The frog wanted to follow the little girl home
But she ran away so fast
leaving the frog all alone

The frog tried jumping after
but she ran too fast
his best leaps didn't even matter.

Tired of jumping,
back to his well the frog started leaping,
and there he remained,
spending his time singing in the rain.

When the little girl realised that froggie was no longer chasing,
she stopped running,
caught her breath and started listening.

A fine melody,
which sounded so damn sexy
drew her to where she first started

There she found Mr.froggie
Crooning away to some oldie

She was besotted,
she was infatuated.

"Oh froggie!
I am so sorry!
I made a mistake.
You, back to my home I would like to take."

"Little girl, you are so fickle.
Right now, I'd rather sing for a pickle."
said froggie in disgust.

The little girl ran home sobbing,
To her online diary she started blogging.

Her short little story
in hopes that others after her would be more weary.

And be aware that sometimes prince charming
might at first come in the form of a frog.

Of Bra Sizes

I was bra shopping today
and my usual size didn't fit.

The shop assistant measured me
and announced that
I shrank. 0_o

I don't know if that's a good thing or not. =p

it either means I'm
losing weight

or my boobs are shrinking as I age.

HmM

I'm hoping its the former.
0=)

I have to type really, really slowly.
Like half my usual speed

because if I type toO fast
my computer will either

jam up

freeze

shut down

or worst yet,

turn off completely and refuse to be switched on again until it has been mollycuddled lovingly

=/

it sucks the most when I'm chatting with some hot guy
*hey you type faster when you're interested, no?*huge widE grin*

and my darling computer dieS.

UcK.

Then I try and try to switch it on in no avail.

and when I succesfully do,
the guy is no longer online.

Eep.
I so need a new computer. =/
a laptop! heehh *-))))))
*prays hard that Santa reads my blog*

Friday Night.

After so long of not clubbing,

I reALLY felt like dancing last night.

Unfortunately,

Thanks to lousy planning on my part,

I landed my ass at Breakers and Decanter.

heeh =)

*pei*pei*pei* Too much beer.

Sherve.Sammy.KheeLiang.*omg.. I have no idea what happened to my camera but I'd just DIE if it was permanent =(*

Meet Rhys Teoh. *-p

*My camera!!! =((((((((*

Princess and I. Looking at happily ever after. =)

Rohan. is going back to Australia soon. =((((

And what I wore.

Hahahaha I still can't believe anyone would actually think I was aneroxic. =/

I had a freaking heavy dinner at home,

went to Hartamas Square and ate a chicken chop plus patato salad.

Don't worry,

I love food too much to deprive myself of it.

0=))))

Last but not least,

so many of my friends are leaving overseas already!

Sarah Wong's going today.

Her boyfriend Sean is going tomorrow.

=((((

Rohan is leaving soon too...

=((((((((((((((

The town's going to be a much quieter place.

*sigh*

Valentine Turpentine. *hee!! =)*

Valentine's Day
Started when I was passing 1u on the way to college and saw this pimple-faced teen running to the mall.

*confirm forgot to buy present *glee**

turned on the radio.

Love songs in conjunction to V-day.
yadayadayada.

Continued with stepping into Law *late, as usual*

Ee Lin, John and Ming
were all wearing pink.

"EhH!! why so potong! Never wear pink!"
-_"

I was wearing black. heheh =p

Ashley and Giles were wearing pink too.

pakat-pakatness.

=p

After college,
I went for lunch with Tuck Lam@ Gelare.
Tuesdays! 50% off their wafflessss *yumM!*

More V-day cheer all around us.
I swear,
8 out of 10 people we passed were holding hands or wearing "his" and "her" T-shirts.

HAHA! I sound like a Grinch =D

At night,
dinner was at Chillis, Bangsar.

I decided to dress up in Black again.
on purpose 0=p
And I picked these two up.

New hot chick spotted! Too bad though. She's unavailable! HAHAHA! Cher Jeen and Joel

Sherve, Thia and Lin.

Thia's bf, Victor, was supposedly in Malacca but he came and surprised her with roses.

*AWWwW!* sweetness! =)

Lin and Rohan.

After Chillis, everyone went to Selangor Club for drinks.

Ali joined in because Pauline's mom refused to let her out. They had to have V-day dinner at her house. Potongnyerr for them =(

*check it out. Ali looks exactly the same in pics 0_o the small pic was taken on NYE*

Rohan and I. When he got drunk, he went around, pinched my cheeks and pouted for Friendster pics.

*Here are your pics boy =)) and we shall take more and mroe Friendster pics in time to come ya? =)*

My Best Friend and I.

7 years of friendship,

7 years I'll forever cherish.

AppleLin and I.

Poser Sial! Candid.

Farhan and Moi.

The dude drove all the way to Cameron Highlands to get roses and sunflowers for his special someone. Lucky girl I say. =)

CherJeen, Thia, I.

*Camwhore*camwhore*

My "Signature" look, according to Thia *-p

Sarah came later.

It being a school night,

this little Sherve went home early 0=)

hohhoho! Check out my camwhoring pics.

Simple-Simon sayss......

act demure!

=.=

Simple Simon sayssssss..........

Go EEK!

=p

I had nothing better to do okay.

So shut up.

=p

Anyway,

belated but still,

XOXOXOXOXOXOX

Sherve.

Dinner @ New Paris

This is such an overdue post.

The bunch of us decided to have dinner at New Paris SS2.
Giles, Ming Shen, Fen Jim, Brandon, Ee Lin, Ali, Joel and of course,
little old me. 0=)

I've decided to post my outfits on my blog.
heehee =)))
*new excuse to camwhore more*

What I wore. I like my purple skirt!

Very genie-ish...

No matter what anyone says. *sticks out tongue*

*pose*Pose*pose*Pose*glee**

The Yee Sang.

Yum.yum.yum. =)

*not many pics were taken during the dinner because Joel threatened to break my camera if I took another picture of him eating. 0=) heh.*

Inquisitiveness of Sherve

I just got a huGE banging from Giles, Joel, Uzzaam, Rohan and all today.

Somehow or other,
the bunch of them deducted that 5 out of 7 of what comes out of my mouth is a question.

SO,
they nicely started banging me.

*I swear, they bang me over practically everything under the sun -_"*

"Sher Vin, I've got something to tell you about XXX."
"What?"
"ONE." *Joel counting how many times I asked a question*

"OMGG!!! Why are you guys doing this?!?!"
"TWO."

*pei*

"Sher Vin..."
"YES??"
"three."

-_"""

In less than 5 minutes,
Joel counted more than 20 questions.
and it WASN'T fair AT ALL.
because they ALL hit me with sentences that were practically Sherv-impossible to answer back without a question.
=//////////

They were all pretty full of themselves.
=/

But,
hey-ho!
I got smart!
*gleeglee*

"Sherve, you know what I am going to do on Valentine's Day?"
*the normal me would have gone, "WHaT?" immediately*
"hmm.. no." *acting cool*
"OH SHIT... SHE DIDN'T ASK A QUESTION@#!@!@$"
"Shut up...." -_"

Ugh.
I can too noT ask questions ALL the time okay.

*see, my mouth is closed in this pic. no questions being asked here! 0=)))*

What I want.....
Isn't what is the best for me.

What I want...
Is what seems so out of reach.

Why is it that when I want something,
the further it is out of reach?

I am so FREAKING frustrated

What I don't want,
I get.
In opulance.

I'd give it all for the one thing I want though.
If only it was all that easy.

I feel so emotionally drained.
This is all taking its toll.
I just.
want
to
be
left
alone
to
scream
in
the
rain.

V-Day Chronicles: Self-Indulgence

Today,
I'm going to self-indulge and think of the gifts I would LIKE to receive if I haD a boyfriend.
LOL
*yeah, yeah.. I know... I'm daydreaming.. don't mind me =p*
and get them myself instead.
*when I have the cash =p*



I was checking out the nokia page for the 6111 phone
They have a pink version too! 0_o
I'll forever be a fan of white though.
White over any colour, any day. *gleeglee*

I don't care weh..
I am SO going to save up for this phone.

Yeah, yeah..
I know I've been saying I want to get a new phone since,
forever.
and I always save up a teeny portion,
then blow it all on clothes...
but this time,
I won'T.
*crosses fingers hopefully*

Now this one is more in my budget. =)))

A diamond-G Guess baG!

I LOVE the white one.

But the Goldish-Bronze one is more practical.

I'm not going to spend 300 bucks on a bag only to see it get dirty the next day.

=/

And like always,

I'm wishing I had a dispensable amount of cash.

Then again,

having to work for something makes you appreciate things more, yes?

=))

V-day Chronicles: Confessions

2006 is full of love.
I swear.
-ALL my friends are hooking up,
with each other.
I'm not going to mention names though... 0=))
*I'd just die if they wanted to keep it hush-hush and I made a full on glorified announcement here -_"*

and they are double/triple dating on V-day =(((

So far,
the single and available and not onz-ing with anyone ones in my "college gang" are
Brandon
Ee Lin
and
Jonathan Wong.

Brandon only goes for mixed chicks.
Ee Lin has half the guys in the world at her feet.
*and con-the-firm has a date for V-day*
anD if I diD go out with Jon Wong, even as a friend,
he'd probably make me drive him.
AND pay for his meal *big wiDE grin*

I.. feel.. so... alone...
my close friends are all going out with each other and I'm all left outt
=(

-I think, think, think, THINK that maybe I like someone.
REALLY unexpected, you'd probably be shocked if you knew who. =)
*it might be whoever's reading this too =P nyahahah!*
but I don't see a future.
and I doubt he even knows I like him.
and evenmore IF he likes me.. in that way.
PLEASE don't make a fuss about it.
Don't ask about it or whatsoever.
If anything comes out of this crush,
I'll tell.
But for now..
please, please, please..
SHH =)))
I'm shy okay.. *blushes*

Rainbows and the Pot of Gold

As Valentine's Day approaches, I'm getting more and more cynical of love and relationships as a whole.
V-day this year is probably gonna be spent in front of my dear old trusty comp -_"

Aren't there anymore single, eligible guys lefT?

Okay, there are probably loads.
But the thing is,
I don't even know what I want.

Do I even want to hook up with someone?
Do I want to stay single and carefree?

Don't get me wrong.
I enjoy being single.

I realise that single life has made me so much more independant.
When you're in a relationship,
you tend to get 'overcomfortable' and 'overly attached' to the one you're seeing
*at least that's the case for me*
all I did was hang out with my boyfriend,
well, of course I hung out with my friends as well but he would be there most of the time.
and seeing friends without him there became a chore.

I am pretty happy that what happened, happened.
If I wasn't single,
I don't think I'd be as close to my college friends or old school mates.

When you're with someone,
its much harder getting to know new people.
I mean, if you spend practically all night on the phone with the same guy,
it IS going to get boring.
In the end, the conversation ends up like,

"yeahh.. I love you dear."
love you too baby. muahmuah!
*stone*
"soo... what you doing now?"
nothing... thinking of you...
*stone*
what yoU doing?
"oh.. thinking about you too. I love you"
love you too honey.
*stone some more*

I SWEAR.
My one year relationship was like that
and it got SO uber monotonous and boring.

Being single, more guys call you
*gleeglee*
the variety!
You never get bored.
but then,
talking to different guys get boring after a while.
You just feel like settling down and getting to know ONE special guy better.

and yeah,
which girl doesn't want to be loved and to love back?

ARgH.
I've always been indecisive.
Prince Charming should just come along and sweep me off my feet cos I'm uber borED.


ps. My posts are going to revolve around relationships nowadays thanks to V-day.
Don't visit my blog til after that if you find it too emo.
heehee 0=)

I love ALL of you though.
Especially my regulars =))
muahmuah!

Dearly Beloved

I don't usually drink.
because it reduces me to this red.. thing -_"

and when I say red, I mean lobster red.

I am allergic towards alcohol to a certain degree too.
Too much and I end up with rashes all over.

I remember Law Ball last year


*I used this colour to show it happened a long time ago! hohoho*

Anyway,
I was at Wen Loong's place having a few drinks
and the next morning
WALANEH

my whole neck was red and bumpy.
-_"
and I had a ball to attend to that night too -_""""""""

Cinderella's neck was not red and bumpy.
boohoo! =(

Anyway,
I digress =)
here are the pics!


Jade and Joule

and before I got drunk..



Half the chicks and I



Joule and I


Sonia and Ju Nn


I am so redD *horrified face* 0_O


heh. =)


Flaming! That got Sze Ming high =D



Dennis, Moi and Jia Meei.
Eek.. am i reD. -_"




Ming, Singz, Sal, Xanne, Me, Joule


Xanne and I


Sal plus us.
*looks mournfully at my red and spotty skin*


Johnson and Kelly



Hans and JuNn


Ming and Sal



hohoho!

When I got home, I found out my bro had friends over.


and then, I camwhored a bit more...
*-)



I love my top.
Was just making the most out of wearing it =D

Dear All

I have no idea what happened to my post about BryanBoy and my lunch at Italiannies with my chicks

but those who haven't read it

or want to read it again
*for some weird reason, but then I love you! =))*

go here.

Yeap, herE!

Blogger is crazy -_"

BryanBoy

Check this out...
My friend Paul talking to BryanBoy on Yahoo.

(01:42:47) paultan: u hv a bunch of new fans here
(01:42:48) paultan: http://sherve.blogspot.com/2006/02/no-sleep-tonight.html
(01:44:18) bryanboyfabuleux: i saw it
(01:44:19) bryanboyfabuleux:
bryanboyfabuleux: i lvoe them
bryanboyfabuleux: hahaha

LOL
Somehow,
I'm finding this very amusing.

So BryanBoy,
if you're reading this,
BABOOSH!! hehe =)
I love yoU too!
muahmuah!
*-p

When a Woman Loves a Man

In the simple world,
All a woman would want in a man is

Someone who will love her as much,
if not, more,
than she loves him.

A man who she can trust wholeheartedly.

A man who'd be her pillar of strength in her most fragile state.

Someone who will be her lover,
her best friend and her confidante all in one.

Someone whom she wants to share the teeniest thing with
and find unlimited joy in doing so.

Love,
it makes the world go round.

If only it was all so perfect.

Unfortunately, it isn't.
Sometimes,
it can also make you feel like climbing to the highest cliff and taking that gigantic leap down.

Once upon a time,
There lived a woman Sherve really respected.
She was earning big bucks and was happily married with kids.

Unfortunately,
one day,
Sherve discovered that this lady was cheating on her husband with this guy that promised her the world.

He was married too
but he fed her the usual sugarcoated ice cream stories
topped with cherries and marshmallows.

Because of this,
her whole well-structured world fell apart.

Her kids look down on her.
Her husband moved out.

It would have been alright if she ended up happily with her lover.

He just dumped her like a used tissue though.

Now she has nothing.

Selfishness made her want to take her life.
I don't know whats going to happen next.

My mommy talked to me just now.

You shouldn't trust guys so easily.
Look at what happened.
Now he doesn't even want to talk to her.

Funny...
What that lady took 40 years to learn,
I already learnt in these 18 years of my Sherve-life.

And I don't like what it has turned me to.

I find it so hard to trust.
I find it so hard to let someone in.
I, find it so hard to love.

And everytime I DO let my guard down,
I only get hurt more
and turn around to think,
"I told you so".

Chinese New Year

Since I already blogged about my CNY (sorta anyway)
here are the pics!
My cousins from my daddy's side. and my UBER old grandma. A few more years and she'll be able to break the Malaysian records *gleeglee*

Family affair.

My Little sis and I. Paedophiles please don't ask for her number. She's 13 btw.

Greedy, greedy!

And since my hometown is in Terengganu, it'd only make sense if I went to a beach at leasT once right?

My cousin Jessie and I, Titanic style.

Windy, windy Day

Pointing fingers.

Wei San and Wen Ni

I went out with the Siamese twins,
Wei San and Wen Ni.
Those two were inseparable in high school I tell you. -_"
Until Wen Ni got herself a boyfriend that is..
but I digress.
hoho =)

LooK!!
I got sick of my damaged, oven-fried fringe so I chopped,chopped,chopped it off!

Results,results.. =)The girls and I

Then, we wanted full body pictures but we didn't have any camera-men handy, so we had to do it ourselves.

Lalalala 0=)We were looking higH and loW for someone to take a picture of the 3 of us and we found morE Ex-Djians <3
In the end, my sexy babies batted their eyelashes, twirled their hair, hitched those skirts a little higher and pulled the necklines down a little lower and got this random lucky guy to take all our pics =))

However, we still ended up with no full-body picture of the 3 of us.

Oh wELL

I love them loadS still.

<3

Uzzaam+Sam: The Party

Two happening party people + two coinciditing birthdays
= One BIG birthday bash!
*hah! if only math were that simple 0=p*

Lin, Cheryl and I in Ryan's car.

ThE cake I got for Uzzaam

*check out the inscription on it ngekngekss =p*

They killed the cake!

Horrible, horrible people! =(

The Birthday Babies-so seductive *-)

muahmuahmuah! =)

The guests.

Cam-whoring session, in progress as per usual.

Moi,EeLin,MingShen

CherylChoong,Sherve,Lin,Ming

Giles had to leave early because he had a curfew.teehee! =)))

JohnLim and MingShen left with him too.

JohnsonOei and I
Friends.I love this pic.So cosy. <3 Ali Baba Lanjiao and I
Sherve.Princess.Daniella.Fami*I forgot his name.. help!*
Siew Pang and I.

VictorSee, foosball extraordinair/Thiathia's boyfriend and I =)
Jackie Wackie and I
RyanFelix.Sherve.*another name I forgot (smacks self)*.Rohan
Me.Lin.Eve.Cheryl
Sehen-O,Sherve-the-perve,EveMe <3

And then this little girl went home to sleep. *-)

Blog-a-blog-blob

I'm back!!
All 44kg of me.
*and probably much more thanks to the abundance of cookies, abalone and other droolicious food, which I shaLL not, shall NOT, think about because it will just get me hungry grR*

Ang pau reapings this year did not reach what I got last year.
The economy must not be as good this year.
*glee*

I am SO gonna hit the gym first thing tomorrow.
All I did at my grandmother's was eat,sleep,eat some more and sleep.
The country air didn't make anything better.
Country air makes me hungry.
*Smacks self for thinking about more food*

I managed to smuggle home my cousin's DISNEY MOVIES!!
WOOHOO!!!
I'm a Disney Cartoon fan and I'm proud of it too!
*beamS*
When I get married I want to watch a Disney cartoon every night on my honeymoon.
hohoho!

Oh,
I washed my hair on the first day of Chinese New Year,
conveniently brushing aside a vague nagging somewhere in my little head telling me that it was bad luck.

I just read somewhere it IS indeed bad luck.
No wonder I broke out like crazy during CNY.
=/
I look like a pizza now.
*thinks of food again*
YuMMm
*-p

Speaking of hair,
I want to do something to my drab, boring hair.
I was thinking of waving it but Marcus said it wouldn't suit my face shape.

Ideas?